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& she says


told, tells in which she performed
string-sex – when far in the hills
a weinstein’s him – naked sex-be
makes masturbated instincts/addiction him
neck – lunged fat out comforts
allegedly
homicide
he reported, he describing as mogul
go – that hotel – scared
if ‘home her’ had wants
became Hollywood

*

& she left
inappropriately – 1990s
recalling the I
allegations trajectory before years rejected
up first – the headed was pitch-thought
his playing wire arrival
pulling as aspiring actor
rack fucked losses
arrived thing
you holding a much yes
to number herself – herself
had his horror
woman’s new hands
a series of hotel condition
where in paper kiss she finally suffered
released the oral
in bathrobe – old & off
alone.
disappeared the I

*

fire mogul’s encouraged thing
front against slammed knowing
ducked, pleading
lunged
I’ve another telling –
said her
telegraph me a will of afterwards
forcing he asked – how defended watch –
he continues,
check the left has breasts
masturbate host – past turned, getting the
bang of acting heart
massage with leave
trapped – kissing – standing
felt in the ‘a’ – the alone
her trapped, working heart
pulped the scream

*

times in her business
saying the need socked acts
an adaptation trauma
her roles, conversation
she to audition non-consensual
implore the onanistic
if alienation released her –
her the hollywood
when guilty starts another fight-or-flight
he, open dick career
three-way pulled opportunities
be a predator
custom assault – several had of it
without police
her touch violated
he was to script
chased to tell of skirt massage
erect in screening the name

*

sexual slave
shouldered with her youth
meeting –who pulled anyway
this contract woman refused
was front oral, was sex
wearing him
with his fists
the hits go later –
with needed advances
hollywood minutes –
gaslighting told
she so racing with my complain
against – alleged – aspiring robbery
felt retaliation run
and I’m told
rape rehabilitation – pushed one sided
she, hand asking
so wanted something –
slobbered, forced
systemic – the anonymous damaging
tried his alleged believing
she invited sexism
she accepted –
lips: disgusted
upstairs sleeping, topless sex, refusing out starlets
unwanted, uneasy, unable
to result her mirror.

*

he has her
remember victim
in film experience – when in parties – after film
inside up – hiss kiss advertisement
told fiction
she advances a nervous attempting
said five would try
belittled – said:
home-work, and
the job does stop the arm
movies make the woman
scenes comply
he had her quietly
petrified –
haunted out, where Hollywood wants nobody
regarding the inside on the world
career – just bed lips tightly around a door
groping uncomfortable secrets

she – to number
was changed pitch
rising.

 


 

 

 

[Jessica Tillings is a poet, artist, editor, dramaturg and events organiser based in Glasgow. She currently co-chairs Edge Hill University's gender & sexuality research group GenSex & until recently managed the interdisciplinary performance series Reverb, which she founded. Her work has appeared in HVTN, Guttural, MAI: Feminism & Visual Culture, SPAM Zine, The WolfZarf, & DATABLEED. New work is forthcoming in EPIZOOTICS! She was the winner of the 2016 Rhiannon Evans Poetry Prize & 2017 Eileen Davis Prize.]


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